Change.

I typically like to keep this blog light, fun, and about the kids. It's my way of 'scrap booking'. This post isn't so light and fun...

These past couple of weeks have been tough. We've had a rough time around the house with sick kids, and you'd think that would be enough but it seems to just be piling on. You always here the phrase, "God won't give you more than you can handle." I believe that to be true, but I also must not be seeing something in me that God does.

Earlier this week, Drew was out of town (which always adds a little stress). Kerrington had a hard few days. I don't know if it was him being gone, her still not feeling well, or just her being a 2 year old. Whatever it was, I was at the end of my rope. I didn't know what to do with her, it seemed like everything she did was an act of disobedience. Last night, she woke up at 1 am, requesting mommy only. We were up til 4 am. She wasn't complaining of anything bothering her, just fussy in general. She was up an hour later til about 6:30 (thankfully, Drew was back and I was able to sleep from about 6:30 til 8:30). In addition, we were supposed to get our new stove top today (it was broken at K's party on the 19th). They arrived, and as they were preparing to install the stove top, I noticed it wasn't the one we ordered. The one we ordered was the exact same as the one currently in the house...just not shattered. We found out that the one we ordered was actually discontinued, and no longer available. Long story short, they are ordering two stove tops and hopefully one of them will work for us. The bad news is we have to wait another week.

My phone, is broken, hanging together literally by a strand. I'm not due for an upgrade until the end of May. And, to top it all off the kids are both on antibiotics, which is good for their infections, bad for their diapers. I don't know how many clothes my lil Kellan has gone through in the past few days...

Now with all that said, I don't want to be a complainer. I hate it. I keep a lot of things inside just because I don't want to come off that way. I also know that there are a million other people in this world that are dealing with much worse problems. I find something very interesting though. I started at the beginning of this week the Monvee packet. It is a program my church is starting for personal spiritual growth. My daily walk has been few and far between recently, and I have no excuse for the reason why, but I was really looking forward to getting in to this. It helps you find your strengths and weaknesses, and ultimately develops an avenue that works for you to grow spiritually. To change. I know in my core that this is the devil attacking me. He is throwing all these things at me so that I will give up and fail at this. It's incredible. It's also not going to work. I know that my God is good and I am learning through this that I am not in control, that He is. Thank you Jesus for that gift. I'm also learning that

So, here's to growth, here's to change, here's to God being in control, and not me. I'm looking forward to starting this journey.

Our current view on the stove top, or lack-there-of!

K today after I changed some stinky diapers. I went out to the kitchen to clean up lunch and she cleaned out Kellan's drawers...I decided not to fight this battle and just let her smile and say 'cheese' because she was so proud of her accomplishment! Silly girl!